Beyond Narratives

Philosophy…

Its an interesting subject, to say the least.

Or so I thought while my classmates and the teacher discuss about the Mind, Soul, Identity and other such abstract concept.

Philosophy is the study of the fundamental nature of Everything with all questions more uncertain than the first and theories that are impossible to prove for humans which I seem to drift away further from. It is unlike science where everything seems to be certain and factual.

Philosophy can be sorted into four major branches…

Metaphysics, which I am most interested in studies the very fundamental composition of Reality itself which includes concepts like Free Will, Fate, Mind, Soul, Existence, Nothingness, and everything that is beyond the reasoning of Science. The branch where questions are without end, questions which I am now on the path of gaining concrete answers.

Logic seeks to organize reasoning, all science was based on logic to be structurally sound to the reasoning of the Universe. The reason why 1 + 1 is equal to 2 and not 11. It seeks to be objective and beyond perspectivism yet it is uncertain just how objective the perspective of these bias beings who derived these objective formulas trying to observe and understand something that they are subjectively percieving.

I guess you could say that Science may as well be a branch of philosophy considering its fundamental Logic is founded by philosophizing philosophers, before the forefathers of the sciences are scientists, they are philosophers.

Epistemology: Study of the nature, origin, and limits of knowledge. Perspectivism and Relativism of human-gained knowledge were studied in this topic. The branch which questions the very concept of Knowing.

Axiology is the branch of philosophy that considers the study of principles and values. These values are divided into two main kinds: ethics and aesthetics.

Ethics: Study of what is right and wrong in human behavior, the branch I dislike as everything that can ever be learned from it centers around the perspective of a human.

To me, Good and Evil are no more than concepts that humans have formed as something to protect themselves from themselves. Seems to me that the concept is nothing but a big ”Nah ah-ah ” looming over the mind of humans like a mother telling them to do or not to do something because it is ad or good.

Moving on…

Aesthetics is the examination of what is beautiful, enjoyable, or tasteful… In the case of humans, it all centers around their perception as their senses are sorely limited by how the neurons in their brain process the input from their limited five senses.

It had been over-debated whether it was objective or subjective much like reality; Is it truly relative to the perspective of the beholder? or is there such a thing as objective beauty?

Though I side more with the subjectivity of it, the narrowness of the factor that is considered in an argument for its objectivity makes me so. Though in some sense it can also be objective in the case of common Perception and Interpretation which a congregation of individuals or culture can reach, but never absolutely and universally.

But I guess if I don view it from a narrow perspective of a human, everything is less interesting and lacking thr thrill of mystery.

if I view the world in an objective and uninvolved view, I would just be another observer who couldn care less as I simply am not there. Ill just go it is what it is and not really care aside from it which is equally narrowing, oh paradoxes sure is great.

Being a God would be equally as narrowing as being a human, an impersonal force that does nothing but observes is as pointless as Everything else. If they are equally pointless anyway then I might as well observe within and experience Everything for Nothing than go to the trouble of going outside of it and just experience Nothing at all.

Anyways, as the 2nd semester of my 3rd year of middle school just starteda few weeks ago, we are still just at the Unit 1 Metaphysics, yet here we are already reviewing for a test on top of many assignments.

I attend a specially prestigious academy focus on nurturing geniuses, maybe it was my past accomplishments which I now care little for considering my motivation of doing so just died a year ago or my relatively-high reported iq that was suppose to be the highest in recorded history which is also something I care little and had been actively suppressing all records about it so the media could shut the ** up about me already.

Though I was half-expecting to get kicked out for my joke of a grades which I had specially concocted to be all exactly the holy number 69, being late or skipping all the time, assignment always a few weeks late, yet here I am still, in my half way through last year here and they haven even confronted me about my grades or anything academic related…

Must be because my GPA is also 6.9 on a 0-4 scale with all the overseas competitions I enter that stacks up my credit and also gives me a nice break to gaze sceneries here and there, so they can really argue or propose much of anything.

Oh well, atleast one benefit of staying at this school is their cafeteria food is decent and not some toxic experimentation of the cafeteria lady which seems to be popular in public schools, also they have a lot of heavy machinery like Electron Microscopes or the Hadron Colliders for me to exploit which I probably don need now considering I can Percieve the very fabric of Space-Time itself, much less particles that resides within it no matter how small they may be.

Something that I had actually been unconsciously doing is Percieving Everything I want to see be it on infinitely big or small no matter where they are across Space-Time, which is how I witness the whole Causality even if I just stayed in one instance of it.

Maybe I had taken it too much for granted that I am able to do so as I would with my eyes, it just seems natural to me afteralll.

I mean, being able to warp Space-Time itself seems pretty illogical considering there doesn seem to be no other reason I could do so besides the fact that I am what I am.

Ive explored every quantum particle on my body and everything that makes me up, and its no different than a normal humans yet here I am.

Thus sitting on my chair I continue to pretend watching the clouds outside on the window beside me, when really, Im just playing with balls.

Balls known as Stars, particularly those unobservable one on the far reaches of deep space beyond the observable Universe.

Collapsing them as I turn their hydrogen core to iron then fusing thousands of them to a massive black hole or a neutron star, which I then warp smaller yet much denser till it became the size of a basket ball yet could collapse a whole supercluster.

Hmm…

Free will does come in great paradoxes and subtleness…

Or so I thought while squashing stars like those squishy balls one would use to donate blood to pump more of it.

Before I could do as I please with Space-Time and possibly Reality which it is the Continuum of, I always thought I am here because I was forced by Causality and void of my own choices, predetermination…

Yet just as of now, when I chose to remain here, within Space-Time and Causality despite having the freedom to just leave and do whatever I want and I know I can convince myself that it matters not, I find myself going with the flow as I just sit here playing with balls for no reason, not that Anything have a reason of Existing or being there.

I guess everything really is up to Perspective, and I shall be the master of my own Perspective from now on, the forces of worries which occupies my Mind is no more.

I guess being depressed is as equally meaningless as being not at all.

If its all the same anyway, then I will be what I want to be.

No longer am I watching a movie unfold before my eyes, I am now in control.

…

*Denggg-!*

When the 1st period has ended, I climbed up to the usual rooftop.

Sitting on the ledge of the cemented rails after casting a light refraction barrier around me, I gaze at the grand blue sky on the horizon.

Expanding the 5-minute we had between classes to go to the next into Eternity, I stopped the flow of Time.

Manipulating the photons to reflect upon my eye so I may gaze upon the world, and the air molecules around me so I could breathe.

After having the ability to bend Space-Time and all that it contains to my Will, Ive become able to view the world from an Objective Perspective…

…And I came here to doubt that after the epiphany earlier.

You see, whenever I came into what I thought was an objective view, Im gazing at infinity as I would by my preconceived notion of what would objective infinity be like.

Bastardized by my own human-gained knowledge, I guess I can never see beyond what a human can in a way.

Heres a curious question to illustrate, its ineffability of it…

What does it feel like to be born with absolutely no senses?

In a very hypothetical situation in which a child was born void of any Senses, they can see and even darkness was not of their concept to gaze at, touch brought not of heat or cold nor was direction present brought by gravity, hear not even of silence as the concept was of no accessibility any vibrations can be felt, taste not the saliva in their mouth or know the tastelessness of it.

The question is, What of their Reality?

So, to be more specific, what Im really asking is: What do you think this someones Perspective is like?

How would their mind work?

Or do they even have anything at all?

Humans, beyond your senses, what are you?

Bags of flesh that know Nothing?

If Perception or the Senses was changed to something Completely Different, would Reality or the Knowledge that we possess still be the same?

I wonder, if I have the right Perception, would I understand what I am?

See the conundrum here is Ive lived as a human my whole life, with no reference at all to what it is like being beyond it as everything that I will ever come up with is derived from the Narrative of a human.

Sigh…

I guess that is the only say to find out huh…

*Swoossh…*

The vessel containing my Human Narrative became Nothing as it disintegrated to quantum particles..