Hellbound With You (WN)

Alex felt like the lighting had struck him directly. He never thought he had been hurting her for such a long time now by keeping her in the dark. He didn ’t know. He stupidly believed her when she said she was fine with it.

”I ’m sorry… ” Alex mumbled, his voice raw with pain. He lifted his hand to touch her face but he halted midway. ”I didn ’t know that I ’ve been hurting you. But believe me… I… I know I need to tell you everything. ”

”But you didn ’t! ”

”I know… It ’s very… I ’m… ” He was at a loss for words. He knew that at some point he would have to tell her but he had been putting it off because for the first time in his life, he was afraid of losing someone precious to him. ”Because I ’m scared, Abigail! ” he said with anguish as he ran his hand roughly through his soaked hair. There. He said them out loud. Those words were no longer caged within the deepest, darkest part of his soul. He had revealed his weakness to her, confessed his innermost fear and made himself vulnerable.

He sat up, taking her with him and he held her shoulders. He looked at her, looking helpless, vulnerable. ”I am scared that if I tell you, it will affect your health and that ’s why I was planning to tell you after your surgery, Abigail. I just want you to be happy… I don ’t want anything to disturb your mind and health at this critical moment. ” His voice became weaker as he looked at her again with pleading eyes.

”Why would you think knowing your secret would affect me? ” she asked between her sobs.

”Because it ’s something that would terrify you… and I am worried. ”

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”Why? Will someone come after me again? ”

”Yes. Look, I can protect you but I don ’t want any trouble right now, Abigail. It ’s just a few more days until your surgery. I want to give you a few more peaceful days and prepare you for the surgery. I ’m sorry… please stop crying now. I will tell you whatever you want to know. I will tell you everything. Just not now. Once your surgery is over… I promise, I will tell you, I will show you everything that you want to know and see, ” he pleaded, touching her face. He was desperate.

Alex hoped she would understand but when she just stared at him and continued sobbing, Alex felt even more helpless. Should he really tell her now? What should he do? What if something happened because of this?