Kaiwa mo shinai tsurekko no imouto ga, naganen issho ni baka yatte-kita Netoge no friend datta

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As Philia-san talked in a bright mood saying that it was not such a big deal, I realized that she had already buried it in the past.
But even so, my heart was making incredible sounds, beating fast like bells ringing.
My hands were wet with sweat and shaking, I couldn’t even remember how I used to type.
It was indeed a miracle how I was able to reply right away.

 

I started to look back at Hiyori’s recent behavior around me.
At first glance, she appeared serious and mature, yet there was something lacking that made me unable to take my eyes off her.
― and then I understood.
I’ve never seen a face that looked so lonely and aloof before.

 

What popped into my mind was the smile Hiyori gave me this morning.

I’m not sure why, but that image suddenly lost its color as it crumbled away. 

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“There were also other people who helped me too.”

“I see.”

“I’m grateful for them too, you know?”

“I see.”

 

My thoughts were a mess.
I couldn’t come up with anything other than a simple affirmative reply.
Even though Hiyori was trying to say something, I couldn’t comprehend a single word of it.
Just that feelings of guilt and regret were already rampaging in my chest to-n-fro.

 

That night, I had a hard time falling asleep.
I must have been exhausted from thinking too much, but sleep never came.

 

―Hiyori was isolated.

 

I didn’t even know anything about that.
I tossed and turned several times on bed and watched as morning came without having a good night’s sleep.

 

I felt terrible.

 

A heavy drowsiness and light-headedness assaulted me, but my thoughts were strangely clear.
I crawled out of bed, dragging my heavy body.
Somehow, it was difficult to face Hiyori.

 

“…!”

“Hiyori…!”

 

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But as I opened the door, I suddenly came face to face with her.
It seems that we both came out of the room at the same time.
When I tried to call out her name, my voice gradually became smaller by the end. 

 

Hiyori was already wearing her school uniform and holding a bag in her hand.
Was she about to leave the house already?

 

Seeing as she was her usual self, which had no shadow on her expressions, I breathed a small sigh of relief.

[TL: shadow means dark feelings perhaps]

 

“”…””

 

An indescribable silence followed.
Hiyori looked away, but I could see that she was still conscious of me.
However, for some reason, I couldn’t look directly at Hiyori.

 

“…Ah”

“―!”

 

It happened all of a sudden.
It was as if something was changing about her.
Hiyori was trying to word something from her mouth.
I have no idea what she was trying to say to me.
But– suddenly I started to feel scared.

 

As if trying to escape, I went back inside my room while trembling.
I slumped down to the floor with my back against the door as if I was being sucked in by it.
From my back, I could feel the warm presence of a flustered Hiyori coming from behind the door. 

That made me feel even more guilty as time passed. 

Really, what the heck am I doing …