Taekook Nothing like us

No ones POV

”Guys, wake up, we
e here ”, Namjoon said by patting Taehyungs shoulder. Tae slowly opened his eyes, realizing where he was and that something heavy was laying on his head. He wanted to put it somewhere else but noticed that it was attached to something. As he finally pulled his head to the other side, that thing fell down on his shoulders. It was Jungkooks head. Jungkook woke up because of the rough movement and looked confused around. ”Oh, Im sorry, I didn mean to hurt you ”, Taehyung said. Jungkook yawned and stretched his arms as far as he could in the minibus. ”Its okay ”, he said. ”Where are we? ”

Namjoon shook his head while smiling. ”Dance practice of course, what do you think? ”, he replied.

Jungkook nodded and stood up to get out of the minibus. Taehyung watched him hopping out of the bus.

After everyone was standing in front of the studio, Jin opened the door and held it for every member to walk past and inside of the small building. Not only Taehyung was tired, Yoongi was yawning and Hoseok was lurching a bit. Tae was glad that he wasn the only one to have had a bad night. Maybe it was the temperature? It was starting to get warmer, summer was coming with every new day and the warmth was extending. Luckily the studio had air conditioning, so that it was cold inside.

Before every dance practice they had to warm up and stretch so that they wouldn hurt themselves. After that, a teacher gave them instructions what to do and how to practice without having to do the whole choreography at once. After all of them had a small break with something to drink and some time to talk, they were going to record the choreo of the song they practiced, to upload it on YouTube. Some Staff put up the camera and others put a bit of makeup on the members faces, to make impurities disappear. When they were done, each got on their own spot and a woman pressed the button on the camera to make it start recording.

The music began to play.

———Time skip—————

”I. Am. Exhausted. ” Jungkook took a towel to wipe the sweat of his cheeks and his neck. His whole skin was glimmering. After the dance practice video they were shooting, he continued to workout even though everyone else was hungry and tired. Jungkook was always being seen as the cute, small, maknae-boy. He wanted to become muscular and wanted to be seen as a man. Because of the strict diet BTS had to follow, it wasn hard to gain muscles and get fit fast. He just had to bring up the energy to workout, after being tired from dancing.

”Don over work yourself, you need to calm down now, you did good ”, Jimin said. Jimin was waiting for him to finish and come to eat in the room next door. ”Thank you for waiting, hyung ”, Jungkook said.

”Sure. ”

Taehyung POV

”Tae, pass me the water? ”

Without words I reached for the water and gave it to the one who asked for it. I barely ate anything, I know it was a bad excuse but I just wasn hungry. This would be the last time of the day to eat, I knew that but I wasn in the mood. ”Hey, are you okay? Are you eating? ”, Hoseok asked me almost whispering. ”What? Yeah, yes hyung, Im good. But thank you ”, I said. He probably wouldn believe me but it was worth a try. ”Okay, whatever you say, love ”, he replied. I think he noticed that I wasn going to talk about it soon but I honestly thought he would ask more questions. I knew Hoseok as one who doesn give up quickly, maybe he just understood? I felt him massaging my shoulder softly. I looked at him and gave him a thankful smile. He smiled back and took his hand off my shoulder to continue eating. By that I saw Jungkook and Jimin coming through the opened door. Jungkook always does his workout right after practice. I don know why he feels the need to over exercise when hes already all sweaty and tired, but I have to admit, he is a lot more tougher than me. And he loves to work out. I hate it. I only do it because bighit wants us to. To be in good shape and stuff. I don get the point of it. I mean I do, but I don like working out. I think its unnecessary.

Well whatever, Im gonna wait for the others to finish eating so that we can finally go home. Then I have to write lyrics which will be hard because lately Im blocked somehow. I don know what to write about. I feel like Im tired all the time and I don want to do anything anymore. Dancing would normally do me good but today and the last few days, I just felt empty. ”Im gonna use the toilet ”, I said to Hoseok next to me. He just nodded showing that he heard me.

I stood up and went past Jimin and Jungkook who were sitting next to each other. Seeing that made me feel even more empty. What is this feeling? Jungkook looked up at me and I stopped walking when I was behind him.

”You okay? ”, he asked me.

”No, yes, no Im good, thanks ”, I lied. ”I- uh Im gonna use the toilet real quick, be right back. ”

”Okay ”, he said.

I rushed past him, to get out of the room before any one could notice the tears forming in my eyes. What is happening? Of course I didn have to use the toilet, I just wanted to get out of there. It made me feel narrowed. As if I couldn breathe properly. Now that Ive been walking my way outside of the building I felt better. I sat down on the stairs in front of it and tried to calm down. I looked up at the sky and didn even find one cloud. The sky was deep blue and very calming to me. I didn feel so bad anymore. I felt the wind blowing around me, playing with my hair. I heard some birds singing. I closed my eyes to hear them better. I took a deep breath.

”I knew you weren okay ”, I heard a voice saying behind me. I opened my eyes. I didn need to turn around to know who it belonged to.

”How? Was I obvious? ”, I asked.

”Well, no. I mean kinda. You were to me ”, he admitted. ”Tae, I know you. Your voice was starting to break when you were talking to me. It always does when you are about to cry. ”

”I am not crying ”, I replied. ”It would be okay if you were. Crying isn weak, you know that right? ”

I sighed.

”Crying is strong actually. Because you
e showing emotion, and vulnerability. That is strong ”, he continued.

”Could you sit down with me? ”, I asked lightly. ”Of course. ”

I heard his shoes walking down the stairs. His steps were calming me a bit.

He sat down next to me. He put his arm around me and said: ”Its going to be okay. ” With those words, the tears in my eyes were forming again. Not long after, the first one fell from my eyes. Then the second one. And the third. I started to whimp. First quietly because I was embarrassed to cry in front of him. Then I couldn hold it any longer and I started to sob loudly. He took me into his arms and held me. I was wetting his jacket with my tears but he didn seem to bother. He just held me closer and put his other arm around me. His right hand was caressing my hair and his left hand petted my back. My head was resting on his collarbone. He whispered calming things into me ear. ”Shh, its going to be okay. You will get through this. ” Then after a moment he said: ”We will get through this. ” I was trying to calm down but it didn work. ”Its okay, take a deep breath ”, he said. I did what I was told. It worked better than I thought. Finally I was calming down. I took another breath and another. I felt him slowly letting go of me.

”Don ”, was all I could get out.

”What? ”

”Just please don let go of me. ”

”I- um. Okay. Sure. ”

I slung my arms around him. And pressed myself against his body. We were so close, I could feel his heart beating. It was beating fast. Was he nervous? Why would he be nervous though? It made no sense to me. He took his arms off me and tried to pull me into his lap because we were sitting quite uncomfortable there, on the stairs. I put my legs around his waist so that I could sit a bit better. I hoped he didn mind. He seemed a bit flustered but he didn say anything. He pulled me closer in his arms. It was so good, so warm. I felt safe. I didn feel empty anymore. I felt good for the first time in the last few days, I felt really good. He was resting his head on my shoulder. And I closed my eyes again. Even the birds stopped making noises. It almost seemed like the were watching us. Us? Why us? Just him and me. Not us. There is no us. There won ever be.

”Guys are you com- ohh.. am I interrupting something? ” Jimin said.

I looked up. ”I ..um we were just- ”

”You
e not interrupting, we weren doing anything ”, Jungkook said before I could finish my sentence. Rude. As if this was just nothing. But he was right. We weren doing anything. Just hugging. Like normal friends. This was just a hug. A total ordinary hug. Right.

I tried to stand up which was a bit complicated by the way my legs were still around his waist. One leg was faster than the other and I slipped. Jungkook was quick enough to stand up right after me and caught me in a very romantic way. He had his hands on my back while my hands were around his neck. He was slightly above me. We stayed like this for a millisecond before Jimin said again: ”Listen guys, do you want me to come back later or..? ”

Yes.

”No, we
e coming ”, Jungkook quickly answered and pulled me back on my feet. ”Um … thanks ”, was all I could say without stuttering that obviously. ”You
e welcome ”, Jungkook said with a grin on his face. I smiled shyly. I just hoped I wasn blushing.

”You
e blushing ”

Ah shit.

”No Im not ”, I said.

”Don be shy its cute. ”

”Thanks? ” Cute? What does he mean, cute? He turned around and followed Jimin back inside the building. Then I did too. In there, it was cold again because of the air conditioning. I felt a headache coming. Oh no.

”Are yall done with eating? ”, our leader asked. Everyone nodded except Yoongi. ”Are you still gonna eat that? ”, Yoongi asked me and pointed at my food. As I shook my head he quickly ran over to my food and took the plate in his hands. Hoseok grinned. ”Okay, now that thats done, everyone can go back to the minibus.. ”, but as we all turned around to leave he said: ”Except you Taehyung, Im going to need your help here. ” Oh no. I bet he wants to know why I was gone for so long and why I haven been eating much.

After every member left he spoke up. ”Listen, Tae. You know we all want whats best for you. You know that right? ” „Yes hyung sure. Whats up? ”, I asked, acting all innocent.

”As the leader, it is my responsibility to make sure everyone is okay ”, he said while taking the plates which were left on the table and took them to the dishwasher. I took the cups we were drinking from and put them in the dishwasher. ”I want you to stay home for a few days ”, he said calmly. ”What? Hyung- ”, I tried to convince him but he didn let me finish my sentence. ”I know, I know you don think you need it, but Jimin told me you were having sleep problems and I saw you rushing out of the room earlier ”, he continued.

”You can be serious ”, I said. ”Jimin told you?! Why would he do that? I thought I can trust him! ”

”No Tae listen, you can, he wants you to get better, he is worried about you, don you understand? ”

”I told him not to tell anyone! ” ”What is wrong with sharing how you feel and whats going on with of you? ” ”I- I didn want to.. ” ”… bother us? ”, Joon asked.

I stayed silent.

”You won ever bother us by asking for help, do you understand? ”

I nodded.

”No, Taehyung. Do you understand? ” Namjoon came up to me and took my face in his hands to make me look at him. ”I understand, hyung. Im sorry ”, I said so quietly that I was afraid he wouldn hear me. ”Its okay. That is what we
e here for, okay? ” I nodded again, finally glad he knew about my sleeping problems. ”And the next time you can sleep you will just come to any member. All of us will be glad to help you and support you. ” I sighed in relief. ”And now we will clean the rest of this stuff up so we can go home ”, Joonie said. I agreed.